Happy Mother's Day

It is the 2nd Sunday of May, an international celebration for the greatest love of all. This year we bought our mum a heart-shaped Baskin' n Robbin's Chocolate cake, upgrade much? It was a very awkward Mother's Day. First we celebrated it one day ahead of international schedule; Second we bought her the cake a day after international schedule; Thirdly we almost sang a Happy Birthday song. 

My mum is a petite women in her early 50's, where most people assumed that she is way younger thanks to her youthful complexion. Like all mums she is very strong willed, discipline and loving to her children. I do have my ups and downs with her, but nevertheless I do love her very much. 

Happy Mother's Day to all mummies out there. Thank you very much for the tender loving care for as long we live. 

Reasons

Hello peeps!

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It’s another month this year, approaching the 6^th month soon. A lot of things around me has changed but there’s is one thing that remains which is my job status. The updates on CB after the gruelling two-an-a-half-hour online test told me my percentage of numerical reasoning section has not fulfilled their desired percentage as the position I have applied for required a high level of numerical ability. It was not a good day for me although today I speak of it but it still hurts somehow – to want something so bad and failed. Then again I thought perhaps it is not my forte, not what I am good at or passionate for. Next is to identify my strength and weaknesses to work from then onwards.

Today is Alvin’s first day at work in his new company. If there is anyone I’d look up to, besides the point that he is my boyfriend that’ll be him. It’s never every day I get to meet people who are so clear of their directions and goals in life. It is such an inspiration to work for what he is passionate for, set a goal and charge at it. It is hard not to look at yourself and feel what on earth you are still sitting around with nothing/something that you absolutely have no feelings to. My good friends like Su Fen and Sean has found their foundation of what they want to do in life, I can’t help to feel pressured.

I know what my issue is truthfully; I took my first job very seriously (as though they are the deciding factor of my retirement). There, THAT is the problem. Working on it I am. “Don’t be so choosy” “Work first, and then find something else.” Oh... If only it could be so easy to even land a call for interview these days.

It was Labor Day yesterday; I felt I did not deserve to celebrate it at all. Such a feeling is hard to be sustained when you are the only one around without a job and still working part time like a bum. My parents has not been very pushy, they even offered various suggestions (of some saying I could find a job in my hometown to save on expenses) but I can see the concern they have because I am still unemployed although I already have taken about 5 months off. There are dark times when you feel you are absolutely no s***. This is when self-motivation is at its dire need, what I do is psycho myself into feeling super hype and motivated, envision myself into something great and start from then onwards. Trust me, easier said than done like anything else in the world.

Enough of the emotional post which I feel I have written far too many to count these days. It’s a new month and I will still continue hunting! Feeling blessed as in the midst of all series of unfortunate that happened I still have a great bunch of support and encouragement coming from the closest friends and bosses around me.

May 2012 and Convocation comes hand in hand and I believe everyone is excited for it. A lot of them have flown back to Malaysia or will fly back to attend this once in a lifetime ceremony. I can’t wait to meet up with all of them again! Considering it could be the first and last for everyone, we have suggestions of a gathering the day before and a champagne toasting session on the day itself – all in all it will be epic!

I woke up not long ago, twisted and turned in bed and this is the first thing I did in the morning. Already 10.43am and I shall get on with the rest of the work I have in hand. Toodles.

Hugs. 

Obsessions

Ladies and gentlemen. 

This, is the reason I am still alive.

And where humanity proves it's existence.

Top left to right: Gianmarco Lorenzi Multicolor. Gianmarco Lorenzi Bling Bling. Christian Louboutin Gold Studded. Ferragamo Red Classic Pump. Christian Louboutin Yellow Sexy Stiletto. YSL Tribute in Red. Alexander McQueen Armadillo. Christian Louboutin Patent Nude Pumps. Miu Miu Triple Bow Flats. YSL Tribute Suade Heels in Hot Fuchsia. Glitter Christian Louboutin. Patent Yellow Sky High Christian Louboutin Pumps. Classic Slingback Christian Louboutin. YSL Tribute in Maroon. Balenciaga Lego-like Sandals. Prada Tweet Bow Flats. Louis Vuitton Spicy Sandals. Christian Louboutin Multicolor Slingback. Sweet Miu Miu Flats with Ruffle Bow. Gianmarco Lorenzi Gold Slingback.  - All photos from Google.

 As you can see. I am good as crazy. In my eyes there is only one shoe in this picture that does not make sense but I still LOVE them all. I will work my ass off to own this babies. 

Feel free to buy me a pair =)

I find no purpose with wearing heels that has no lifting at the front, so I settled with mostly 1 inch at the front to the benefit of my height. A 5' 2" like me could use a good inches or two!

A girl can never have never shoes, so tell me what's your fav!

If you were an ice cream flavor, you would be my favourite one.

Was listening to Mindy Gledhill's All About You the whole day, I was brought back to so many emotions the past years. The song was sang romantically, softly and gently reminded me of the days when I was a kid,  the time I first learnt drawings, the times I argued with my mum, the time I got hurt by a boy, and the time I fell in love again. It connects so well, I just lay on the bed, close my eyes... and let the song bring me back in time.

Romantically captured by www.ohweddings.net

Have you ever think back to the times you used to think of the future, then reflect the reality of what really happens. I used to think a lot about the specific years ahead when I was younger; for example, when I was 16 years old I would think when I'm 18 what would I be doing. When I was 18 I thought what would I be doing at 21. Lets just put it in a way that things did not turn out to be what was dreamed of shall we?

Despite the less ideal outcome I can say I have enjoyed the years very much and with no some regrets. That's part of growing up is it not. As of now, I'm very grateful of what I have. A family that guides and support me, a great bunch of crazy friends, a loving boyfriend and his wonderful family, opportunities that may lead my way to a great career, and overall a great environment to grow and explore myself. 

I have been waiting for my job application to give me a notice anytime this week or next week. Been extremely anxious, agitated even sometime. I wonder what would happen to me if I didn't pass through this round where I have placed all my eggs in a basket. That's the thing with me, little patient with too much expectation. When times like this surfaces, I will dig out the worse in me then whine over and over about it. Just like when I see a beautiful dress, I'd put it on and try my very best to look out for the imperfection 'Oh it's making my boobs non-existent!' 'The color makes me look like a zombie'. 

Girls, deserve some slaps some day. 

Convocation is set on the 20th May! Excited much! I'm thinking of what to wear already. That is however not my biggest fear. The time I am sure a lot of them are already working for months already, I could be still working my way to look for a job. It's desperado momento honestly. Would they be 'Haven't you got a job yet? ZOMFG still bumming in Pavilion taking photographs of food?'. Deep sigh. 

Funny how people thinks I am so super sometimes but truthfully I do have my downtimes and suffers from major self-esteem breakdown occasionally. 

Alvin is returning from Shanghai this coming 11th April! I know it's 3 months ahead of schedule but he is coming back for good. Who would have expected things to turn out unfavorably, but this is life. Regardless, all of us (especially ME!) is going to welcome him back with a warm embrace, poor thing suffers loneliness and boredom overseas all by himself. 

I'm having a mini project in hand that I wish to complete before I start working, so I will be heading home tomorrow. Gosh I don't want to think about if the company from Singapore calls me up tomorrow when I'm on my way back! 

Till then, toodles. Have a great weekend ahead. xoxo.

p/s: you must, MUST listen to the song. Click here to fall in love.

The Waiting Game

Without me noticing it's been a week plus since I been here in Singapore to attend my job interview. Spent time out almost everyday until recently because my legs are so sore from walking. It was great because I got to meet up with a lot of them, fruitful trip indeed!

Beautifully captured by The-Silver-Doe

Reason why I am still stuck in Singapore is because I am still waiting for one of the company to get back to me. So basically I will have to stay here waiting until further notice, which I am anxiously waiting everyday. Hopefully everything goes well. I really hope to start this coming April. 

This afternoon was slightly unusual for my conversation with Alvin was about holidays in Bali and buying our first apartment in Ampang. We talked about how we are going to decorate the house, which floor it should be at and the sexy red couch. It was something I find deeply comforting and promising about our future together despite being in a long distance relationship now. We wait patiently till the day we meet again A lot of people asked me was it not difficult? Of course it is, not a doubt. It will always be difficult, but it really shows you how much you want to be with that person because you are investing all your heart and soul in something you can't touch and can't see physically. Could be very discouraging at times, however always bring yourself back to where you started, make the most out of it.

Today, something really big struck me, this person doesn't know me but I feel for her deeply for her separation from her husband. She is a strong, independent young lady, I know she'll make through it. Being a follower for about 5 years now, I hope I could give her a big hug. An inspiration to a lot of young girls, she is on the right path so long she is happy, she still holds the world in her hands. It saddens me how it happened so quickly and without noticing everything reduced to dust.

As of now, I'm waiting for the clock to strike 12am to wish my love Happy 1 Year and 2 months!